Shut the door to the sky,
Let these spirits rise and fly.

[Leave, live, love again]

I'm shaking the tree of time,
Far above leaves spiral downward in a flourishing design,
To align this soul setting that entwines my courage,
From this pain inside I can no longer encourage into my outward being,
Let this be a moment of freeing.

I am creating my own luck from now on. I must, or else I will continue to mourn in my self defeat. I need not to be such a defeatist.

Tonight I chose instead of going out to get lost in the colors of paint and find my joyful self again.

And I embrace this solitude.~
To reflect upon my written treasuries and finishing up on my painting! :]

In my dream I was drowning my sorrows
But my sorrows, they learned to swim.

At home, it doesn't feel like a home anymore.

Outside i'm cold, but inside i'm on fire...

"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned"

Ive been feeling a bit glum lately.
I don't know maybe I've had my happiness.

I am not 'lonely' though, just alone. Solitude is my companion.
There is no man for me, only that moon.~*

I involved myself in another gathering for group meditation and discussion on consciousness evolution. At a Unity Church by my place - a sanctuary for all walks of life on all belief systems. I used to go there so I decided to go back and partake in something again.
It was nice to get perspective on personal integrity and tapping into that higher state of knowing when to separate yourself from certain thoughts and karmic cleansing etc;

Also, I am coming closer to accepting that when I encounter solitude as I do; I am one with the universe in other ways.



I'm going to die in a place they don't know my name.

I really need to meet new people.
Sometimes, and especially lately I just feel frivolous and trivial to my friends...

I honestly feel like just disappearing, packing my stuff up and leaving to never return.

Note to self: I just need to take a step back and stand back.